Burn Out

So, last night marks my first complete breakdown about my internship. I don't know if it is finals coming up, or calculating my grades to find out that I'm not going to get the A I wanted... something about yesterday just set me off. My good friend and fellow nutrition major wrote about this in her blog just the other day. I walked in to class to find her not as cheery, and not with her typical big beautiful smile. It is this time of the year all of us nutrition majors (well, and every major for that matter) start to freak out about our grades. Our teachers can never emphasize enough how important your grades and resume will look to an internship. The competition between ourselves and other students is not something you think would be in our major. "Oh you're nutrition, you deal with celery and carrots, carbs, and sugars all day... right?" Yeah, that is what I thought too, till I reached my biochemistry class, scheduled my metabolic and medical nutrition therapy classes, not all fun and games anymore.

Our ultimate goal as dietetics students is to get the acceptance letter saying that we have received an internship. The internship most likely unpaid and we will actually pay them. I know Emory is around 30,000 to intern. THEN, if we get the internship and finish it with our heads still attached, THEN we can sit for our RD exam. Hopefully at this point we would pass, and head on out into the grown-up world. Brianna Dumas, MS, RD, LD <---- I'll take that any day!

Last night it hit me that in one semester I am going to making these decisions, where will I go, and will I even get an internship? I can not tell you how much I love what I do, of course it gets stressful at times, but when I sit down and think about it, I wouldn't do anything else. I want to help people for the rest of my life. Whether it be in a small way or something as big as joining the Peace Corp. I want to help and I will stop at nothing to do this. These are the times I get down about things but I know my ultimate goal and I know I need to get there. Also, I need to remember that I am not alone... every person in my major and well every nutrition student around the country, feels the exact same way.
"Whoever is happy will make others happy too. He who has courage and faith will never perish in misery." -Anne Frank 

Maybe I need to get a massage, go on a run, or just simply take some time for myself. I need to quit doubting myself and realize this is my passion, it definitely shines though.

On a good note-- I have blessed to be given the opportunity of joining the 2012 SOAR team here at Georgia Southern. Our football team will be in the second round of playoffs tomorrow and I'll be heading to NYC soon with some good friends. Learning to see what we are most thankful for and appreciating those things is something I cant thank my mom enough for teaching me. I CAN DO THIS!

Carpe Diem. TGIF!!